Jun 27, 2017

Cherish HOME.

*Don't know why, just feel like blogging about this out of a sudden.


Being so sentimental these few days. 
Time really flies. 
Just a blink of an eye and it's been about two months I've spend my days in uni and even had my midterm test and now pending for final real soon.
When I think back, I remembered I just have 5 days before the registration day to know that I need to get myself prepared and step into uni, finally. Excited? Yeah..
Well, I'm having one-week break right now and I hope this will never end...

To me, 
home is a place where I can find the comfiest feeling (mentally & spiritually) and get real rest, to settle down my heart and put aside everything, living my own time. It's like going home is the best thing, to be with family. Home gives me the sense of belonging. Talking about home, this definitely includes my doggies of course, 
they're important to me too,
as companions, listeners and playmates also you know, 
though they don't talk. Ermm.. will bark at me at times hahahaa..
Quite afraid that I'm not by their side when they need me some day. I guess that is kinda not easy to embrace this kind of feelings somewhere else. 
Because at home I'm a daughter and sister, out there, I'm a friend of others.
The role is different.
Of course, truly, deeply and honestly, there're things and dreams that I'm looking forward out there and I like approaching them. 
And I do enjoy my uni life right now. Taking charge of most of the thing by my own. 
People here are amazing and they taught me to be a better person.

Took some time to ponder about me and my life.
I feel like the chance of me being together with dad mum sis and pups is getting lesser. 
I don't really know when is the next time I can tug in to my own bed at home for months continuously. 
For sure not going to happen in these four years. 
And the years after these four years? 
Heading somewhere else far from home maybe.
It's happening, I'm a grown up haha (sigh).
Always wanted to since young, living life as an adult.
Guess this is every child's dream because you know that you get to do many things that a child can't when you're officially a grown up.
Me rather be an adult forced to fret over trifles than to be one that to be worried about.

Not because of homesickness.
Perhaps, maybe
now that I know I don't really have time to waste,  
cherishing moments spend with family is what I should bear in mind always and forever, or should've say I can't even afford to waste a single second. 

*I really do miss the taste of the meals they used to prepare for me all the time. Not getting to taste it when I'm not at home =(
Also, thinking of what to eat is a crucial yet mind-cracking one during uni life.
Seems to have become a daily mantra.
Home-cook with mates tend to fail sometimes tho XD
(yeah, me always thinking about food)

❤︎


HOW MANY 10 YEARS LEFT?


20 this year. 
Can't really believe that I'm that old now sometimes.
You know, timeline will tend to proceed faster starting from 20, like I'm 20 and a half now. Just imagine you'll turn 30 soon then 40, 50... We don't have many ten years to go. Of course this is only the perspective view from age not mentally but it's still super fast right? Throughout the lifetime, these 10 years is utmost crucial. There are many tasks need to be done when you're still really young and crispy. Including living a healthy lifestyle that determines how healthy you will be later. 
Every stage of life gives you different thinking.
Every stage of life makes you pursue different thing.
I don't know what will I be for the next ten years but I want to be great.
Everyone does.

❤︎


The casts of this family are less but they make me know what is meant by a 
HOME.
So much loves...


Take time to care about what's important and spend time with your loved ones.


Treasure it.


It's PRECIOUS.


me lamenting life is short 
such a heartfelt moment..
x


fullstop.